What does that even mean? Let’s think about it…
Is this familiar? ⬇️
You’re going over in your mind, perhaps for the hundredth time, what you wish you said.
You run the scenario this way and that way.
You cringe when you think of everything you couldn’t say.
BLEUCH 🤮
I remember it well. Hours wasted in the fantasy of what I would’ve done if only I were powerful and authentic.
Buzzwords I did not understand at the time… were far out of reach for me, but they were also something I really coveted.
A recipe for maddening confusion 🤪
I couldn’t grasp authenticity. I was too busy being controlled by unseen forces from my past. I felt ashamed of how I let people speak to me, making me foggy on the inside and irritable on the outside. I tended to rely on bravado and being loud to mask my as-yet-unseen insecurities.
What I really wanted to know was… how do I become the version of myself that I dream about in quiet moments. The me who can stick up for myself and call out rudeness. The me whose voice didn’t stick in my throat and who wasn’t afraid of being seen as wrong or lesser.
I guess I understood powerlessness. I lost power everyday because I couldn’t be myself. I didn’t even really know who ‘myself’ was.
But power was way beyond me…
What I needed was a framework. A step by step, clear and easy path to follow.
I couldn’t find one, so I cobbled together a bunch of stuff I had learned, blended it with ancient Celtic wisdom, and dug myself out of the deep pit of powerlessness and masking.
The current culmination of that work is The Cauldrons Way.
I hope you all find your way to ‘power’ and ‘authenticity’ in a way that is unique to you 🥰